I came across this post on Instagram and I find it so inspirational! I love the way it reframes a lifestyle change – something that can be very difficult- into something to look forward to.
In July, I turned 38, and I’ve been contemplating what I want this year of my life to be like. Since the pandemic hit back in 2020, it has felt to me like my main goal has been to just get through each day, but I want more than that. I’ve spent the last two years waiting for Covid to recede and life to return to normal, but I’ve come to accept that the world may look different forever and I need to start figuring out my new version of normal. I can’t keep living like my life has been put on pause, because if I do I’ll end up mourning the wasted time.
I very distinctly remember feeling the most confident back in 2012-2013. I was really focused on health and fitness and I loved that lifestyle. I felt great and I was finally at peace with my body. I loved thinking of myself as an athlete. Being that self-confident helped me to make better decisions for myself, and overall I’m very happy with where I am in life.
Ultimately, although I changed my life dramatically and I’m happy I did, in doing so I fell out of most of my healthy habits. I still exercise regularly, but my nutrition is all over the place. Over the past several years I’ve tried lots of different things to get it back in check – following diet plans, briefly working with a nutritionist, logging all of my food in my LoseIt app and counting calories. I’ve had some short-term successes, but I always end up gaining back what I lose and then some. Today I’m only about a pound away from the heaviest I’ve ever been, and I know it’s not a healthy place for me to be and that everything in my life will improve if I can make some changes.
I’m fairly happy with my current fitness routine. I work out 5-6 days a week, taking dance, barre, and spin. I also recently tried a weight-lifting class and really enjoyed it! I know the key to sticking with my workouts is finding ones that I look forward to.
I’ve been faithfully logging all of my food in LoseIt, so I have plenty of data that tells me I’m just eating far too much and that’s absolutely the reason I’m heavier than I’d like to be. In order to be successful, I need to actually set a calorie goal and stick to it. And so this morning I set myself a daily goal and I’m going to work very hard to be mindful of my eating.
Instead of feeling intimidated by this process, I’m choosing to be excited about it. Yes, it’s going to be hard at first to change my lifestyle, and I know there will be times when I feel frustrated and want to revert back to old habits. I just need to keep my eye on the prize – a happier, more confident me who can’t imagine going back to living that way.